‘Do it myself.’ I can’t count how many times I’ve heard it, in one form or another, and of course, can’t predict how many more times I’ll struggle to convince my children that it’s OKAY for me to help them. With my hands more than full, I’m all about independence and their growing in maturity and abilities. BUT, there are some things that are two (sometimes three) person jobs at each stage of their development.
Somehow I forget the ridiculous-ness of their refusing help in my own day to day. Somehow, I’ve convinced myself that at this point in my life, I am now able to ‘do it myself.’ I suppose that sometimes I really think I can manage the pile before me. Sometimes (most times) I just don’t want to relinquish the control. I’m afraid others will screw up my plans or turn it into something I was trying to avoid.
An honest look in the mirror and the mess on my hands reveals that pride is still present, keeping me from calling for the help I need-from God (of course!) but also from others.
Moses was the most humble man on earth. And though God had called HIM, singled HIM out, and named HIM leader….he knew he couldn’t handle the task alone. And he was humble enough to say as much.
‘At that time I said to you, ‘I am not able to bear you by myself.’ The Lord your God has multiplied you and behold, you are today as numerous as the stars of heaven.’….How can I bear by myself the weight and burden of you and your strife?’ Deuteronomy 1:9-12
I’d like to tell myself that if I had Moses’ job, I too would be humble enough to ask for help. But being a stay at home mom in Nashville just doesn’t seem to qualify, honestly. The question, though, is not the actual size of my burden, but instead the size of my confidence. Do I really believe that I can do today’s work in my own strength? Do I really think I can manage it all in keeping with God’s law and bearing His fruit–without His help?
I’d like to think that I don’t think so. But on the days when I walk headfirst into the errands and chores and duties without a prayer lifted or an eye to the Scriptures, it’s obvious I’m thinking that I can do this on my own. And when others offer help or God brings a friend to mind that might be able to assist me…and I pass up the opportunity, I may just be holding on to the pride of control or perfection.
Lord, forgive us of the pride that convinces we can do this on our own and help us in humility to call for help, from you and the people you’ve given us.